Prairie Goth

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what's helping alone freedom and I the complex extinguisher dances in the snowshoe grabs me a razor eventually I abandon diligent brokers slip direct coffee off in tristesse the enemy of winter I sometimes hope I can get up hot outside grinding down the sun I hold my lobbyists toward my broken heart my data system grows asleep in good memories architecture and choke me rambling on a princess engineer guitars top their hoodies you fill my mouth into a corner I never should make time to party the ocean’s set method to ban pearl earring lumbers with me the homepage of the hips I draw blood out of the cuffed-up meat grind donate my body so I could pay this court I love my warm eyes how many lives fade magenta ink pedal at the sobbing calf say goodbye to my awful factory the textbook and ladder in error all night paparazzi replacement in my t-shirt glaciers atrophy in credit card euphoria basketball campfire of another day's government cops of the phantom superheat the medicine now I’m lost dreaming about zeroes a

Up in the sky, a miracle. Into the sky like a miracle. I go into the sky, a miracle. I am in the sky. What a miracle. I can solve this. I can figure this one out. My mind is perfectly capable. Blast anonymous walls. It's a miracle to be up here, where I am. I'm in the sky. The clouds. It's a miracle.

What is this behind my ear, stuck inside my nightmare mind? I can solve this. I'm smart enough to solve it. This is what I was born to do. Thanks, Bernadette, for the grenade. The worst crime I've ever witnessed.

I'm doing alright. I can't sleep but I'm doing alright. I keep waking up in this house, filled with light. There's no furniture. I let the outside in with me.

You're pushing the ax deeper into his face. It's okay, no one has to know. There is no acid.

You're going to give me serotonin syndrome with your eyes.

Every time I go to the grocery store, I buy two bunches of bananas. Until they’re gone, I eat three bananas every day. I love to eat them with cinnamon. I’ll eat bananas in oatmeal with blueberries, or with mixed nuts and dried fruit, or on toast with peanut butter, or all on their lonesome. Black coffee is the perfect drink pairing. When I’m having a hard time, feeling depressed or perhaps having a panic attack about the fact that someday I will be dead and won’t even know it, I’ll think about my favorite simple pleasures in life that I’ll miss when I’m gone. If I’m feeling naughty, I will eat four bananas in one sitting. It’s one of my favorite meals.

Remember.

I dreamed we were all together again. Everyone was sick. On top of the building, the owl is screaming.

"There was one created before him whose name we do not know. He also lived in the Garden but he had no mouth or eyes." - DCB

REST IN PEACE, SOPHIE. "I'm all about visibility these days." "Well, last night I ate a crepe and then I went swimming in the sea and then I put on some serum and then I meditated and then I went to bed." "I'm really struggling to remember my dreams at the moment. I haven't dreamt for a long time, it feels like. I'm not sure what that means." "Maybe my dream house would be up on a hill overlooking the ocean, somewhere with a lot of space and fresh air, and I could be there with my friends and my girlfriend and my family and create music. That sounds good." "If you knew you couldn't fail at anything, what would you do?"

Scatterbrained.

Waves traveling through mass.

Mornings by the river.

Stay safe.

I made this recording during soundcheck before my show at the Aquarium in Fargo, ND on June 15th, 2019. It was my 10,000th day upon this Earth.

2017